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night three - prayer
Okay, here we go again... First of all, God, I want you to look out for me in the next couple of hours, 'cus I'm pretty sure that if I'm gonna get killed? This is probably when it's gonna happen. I took a leap of faith and trusted that dude with the weird hair, because I don't know, I couldn't let that girl just... Get away with it. She didn't even seem to care. Wait, no, I'll get to that. For now, I'm just prayin', God, that you'll be watchin' over me, and give me the faith I need to know that I didn't make a mistake in lettin' him know that I was the Detective.
But today, it looks like two more people passed. I hope that Miss Woods, I think that's her name, is doin' okay. Well, okay as you can be. I don't know how Heaven works or nothin', I know it, but I hope that she's at least happy enough in Your embrace, since she as an innocent too. I didn't know her either, and you know what? I'm not sure how I feel about that. I feel like I should get to know everyone, but at the same time, I'm kinda afraid to. I mean, shit, there's a good chance they'll up like Nagoya too, right? I don't— God, give me strength, because I don't know how well I'll be able to handle that if it happens over and over again.
—And I know she went to Hell, but. It ain't right to just look over her either, so here goes. I'm sendin' a prayer for Mega-Me too, because even if she's burnin' for her sins, I dunno. Maybe it's not as hot as the rest of the fire? Is that how it works? Fuck, I mean, you can't lie to God, so if I'm honest, I don't care much. I hope that don't make me a bad person too, but she wasn't nothin' but a killer. I guess Nagoya saw that in her right away. Wish he was still here to help me, but... If You're watchin' over me, then I'll be able to talk to the doctor tomorrow, and hopefully we can help save people here.
This ain't right, but... I dunno. I want to believe that You put me here for a reason, but I'm still havin' trouble findin' that. Uh. And I hope this prayer is better than the one last night. It still feels kinda weird to just be talkin' this much, since it's not like I'm a kid anymore prayin' with Sook, but. I guess if there was ever a time for prayers, it'd be for this.
So. Yeah. Amen, and all that.
But today, it looks like two more people passed. I hope that Miss Woods, I think that's her name, is doin' okay. Well, okay as you can be. I don't know how Heaven works or nothin', I know it, but I hope that she's at least happy enough in Your embrace, since she as an innocent too. I didn't know her either, and you know what? I'm not sure how I feel about that. I feel like I should get to know everyone, but at the same time, I'm kinda afraid to. I mean, shit, there's a good chance they'll up like Nagoya too, right? I don't— God, give me strength, because I don't know how well I'll be able to handle that if it happens over and over again.
—And I know she went to Hell, but. It ain't right to just look over her either, so here goes. I'm sendin' a prayer for Mega-Me too, because even if she's burnin' for her sins, I dunno. Maybe it's not as hot as the rest of the fire? Is that how it works? Fuck, I mean, you can't lie to God, so if I'm honest, I don't care much. I hope that don't make me a bad person too, but she wasn't nothin' but a killer. I guess Nagoya saw that in her right away. Wish he was still here to help me, but... If You're watchin' over me, then I'll be able to talk to the doctor tomorrow, and hopefully we can help save people here.
This ain't right, but... I dunno. I want to believe that You put me here for a reason, but I'm still havin' trouble findin' that. Uh. And I hope this prayer is better than the one last night. It still feels kinda weird to just be talkin' this much, since it's not like I'm a kid anymore prayin' with Sook, but. I guess if there was ever a time for prayers, it'd be for this.
So. Yeah. Amen, and all that.
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watching Jason at his grave earlier had been... unsettling, really - upsetting, almost. but this? with every word Jason says, he can feel his mood lift. YEAH, YOU BURN IN HELL MEGA-ME even though he knows he'll have to deal with her if he fails tonight. all the more incentive not to!! the faltering confidence that had left him after realizing how lost he was returns in a surge and he can't help but grin.]
—What a good thing for you, Texas! Your god is always listening and your prayer won't go unheeded! [yeah okay just gonna talk to himself, apparently, while standing with his hands on his hips in the middle of Jason's room.] If you get your stupid self killed before I get back, I'll make you regret the day you angered god... so stay alive and we'll send the rest of them to their graves! [and then he just THROWS HIS HEAD BACK AND LAUGHS
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(thanks for the prayer though friend he enjoyed it, A+ would sneak in and listen to prayers again)]